Wang's Singles Event

I walked into the tangled room,

It’s deadly silent.

workers were seated like primary students, each with their chair and canteen desks 1 meter apart from each other.

Then I started to untangle the 30 meter long electrical cable. It’s one tangle in another and another… I’m not joking, it’s like the worst tangle ever. I felt like the end of the world. Too scared my limbs were shaking.

All of sudden they started talking shit.

I heard the word “smart”.

I have a smile on my face,

great, now you know I’m pretending to be smart.

Then I saw my young and beautiful colleague’s face, she’s deadly serious.

I know she’s thinking,

she would have picked up those cables before they were tangled.

She’s the greatest leader I have seen so far.

She cleans the media table like it’s the toilet seat.

She wipes the cube divider like it’s the toilet seat again.

I wish this picture is taken by the star above us.

For my great cheer leader, C.

I don’t love myself.

I used to be caring for my look so much that I needed to do plastic surgery.

I have been on Keto for ever. If not, I will hate my body.

People say that I have a big loving heart, I say no, I have small heart and I have an evil soul.

I dislike my DNA. I always envy those who have good genes.

I don’t think I’m a good mum, I can never say to him: sweet heart… darling baby… honey..

I’m not a good worker, always just do whatever I’m asked to do.

However,

I do love my writing.

I do love to give and helping people in need.

I do love to do what ever I can to change the world.

Am I a good writer? 😉

2 hours outside Centrelink,

a lot had happened.

Someone was not happy with the officer, and yelled, then peacefully walked away.

An African woman stood in front of me, I thought, are you jumping in? Thankfully, she left.

Otherwise, I’ll have to let her, because I also thought of what might have happened to her in her entire life.

A police also came to say hello to each queuer, and said, be patient, it’s going to take a bit longer.

I was so boring and started to wonder about him and love.

He is just a white noble man who taught me about love.

What has he taught me?

Love is patience, I’ll wait for ever for it to happen.

Love is sympathy, sympathy was not my word, I was happy to know he had huge sympathy toward me.

Love is arrogant, we never really talked to each other.

When I found out he had other priority for me, I said, really? Yes, he assured.

Then I put him on my palm and smiled with my heart and said to him, free yourself my lord,

he flew away freely.

I myself ran away with my arms swing in the air like a little girl, to my next lover.

I won’t die with you now, we have our priorities.

I was beaten to death by poverty in my father’s hometown,

Your past was raped by your people in your father’s hometown.

We met in Australia, home of the Opera House.

In our 20s, we hated each other,

In our 30s, we loved making love,

In our 40s, we loved our heart so much that making love is too much.

Looking at 50s, I wanna have a lot of lovers like you.

You visit me in my cafe, to try my Chinese Aussie brekkie.

You felt sick,

I wanted to visit you with my Chinese food everyday,

I made delicious Beijing duck for you,

Then I changed my mind.

I said sorry to you,

Sorry I couldn’t make it.

Sorry I was touched by your words sometimes.

Trust the government, I said to my friend.

I will make the dish when you are well.

Wrote on 30/03/20

I am an useless rat.

Let me tell you how,

I want LV bag so badly that I slammed men to buy for me,

I want to comfortably lay in my bed to day dreaming, so I begged the government for some pension,

I begged parents to buy house for me so I can have a shelter.

I wronged the government,

they sent little sexy creatures to me to have fun with me,

so I can forget the pain and enjoy now.

I wronged you,

always judged you and classed you into classes. I did that to myself as well.

I laughed about you in my mind, then I laughed myself to be inside those little pictures you have depicted for me in front of my eyes.

This is a funny story, a romantic one, you know I love being romantic.

In my past life,

I was told wrong a million times but I was never sorry, I ran away, I cry, I try, but never sorry.

Then I met you, you said I’m sorry,

I think you are the perfect match for me. You must loved me because you kept on saying “I’m sorry”.

I got my perfect match, my 1 carat diamond ring from China town.

Ordinary life with tones of sorry from you.

Then the theft stole that ring, our marriage broke.

In my current life,

Even more men said sorry to me. I said to one of them, I want to have a baby with you.

We only met once.

Except that you have altered the history,

I won’t believe that you have rejected me because you never loved me.

You might have too big of a cock,

You will to die for your country,

You probably were an arrogant gentleman,

They told me that you are a spy, I don’t believe it, unless you have altered the history.

We are global villager,

Before the end of the world,

we meet in Africa.

I remember when people all try to rush into marriage,

We were in love and in bed,

On the rainy day, you said to me:

“Don’t you love the sound of the rain? It’s like music.”

I agreed.

12 years later,

Chris said to me:”It’s raining, mum.”

I said back:”Don’t you love the sound of the rain? It’s like music.”

He agreed.

When ever there is a rain, Chris looks at the rain and mumbling: “Sound of music.”

Then he happily jumps into the car,

we head to his expensive school you afforded.

Co-ed, it is.

25 years of academic, certificate after certificate.

16 years of searching for office work.

Office politics is like dancing in the rain,

I quit.

Wait, I want to sue you for inequality,

simply thinking of this, made me feel like I’m a real human being like you are, I felt I have a pair of bird’s wing which slowly lifted me high above the ground, and swing my spirit into the blue sky. I wanted to call out my free feeling to someone but no one to hear, so I started to singing the songs that I couldn’t plotter. Forget about the paper work I have to go through to sue you, I’m already free when I plottered my suing towards you.

Yet it hadn’t happen and no compensation was earned. I hadn’t earned my equality, yet I’ll send you a Christmas card for companionship.

Now I am doing dream work,

cleaning the factory warehouse at 5 am, cashing in while losing weight.

The 5 kg vacuum is on my back, in my mind, I’m drafting my writing for the day.

Where is this going to lead? I don’t know, I have enough money to support me for now, I know.

I have been thinking about him all day,

son keeps ringing me,

I couldn’t hear a word he said, until he struck me when he said:” mum, you are a good person, but dad said this virus is pandemic and you need to stock up food….. dad got 70 cans of food… ”

What kind of son calls mum a good person? This Chinese mum said back to him:” a good person? are you crazy?” He said back:” you are crazy, mum.”

Yes, I forgot, you are an Australian and I’m Chinese.

Now come back to the virus situation. I have been thinking about my love situation non stop. Watching people panic made me wonder, what’s the point of living without love and freedom?

Today I have come to realisation that I have been written fake words,

I make up stories to gain your attention.

You are my god, I reveal my true feeling towards you.

You never said a lie to me, you told me true lies.

You told me:” Truth can be painful for a while.”

I felt so much pain since I met you,

yet, I love you so much day by day, why?

Because truth is love. Truth is sweet. Truth is big heart. Truth is trophy. Truth is knowing. Truth is big dream….

I love you. My true god.

You love me, I know.

I love you, I dream.

So what are we afraid of? Why can’t we get together?

I have low self esteem. In this world, I don’t have a great background, I can’t give you anythings, maybe I can’t give you love.

Only if the world is up side down, then I will have the confidence to love you with who I am.

That is why I have come to the idea of “Changing the world.”

That event, Grace and Mercy met.

Grace was makeup free but she didn’t know it was for him.

Mercy showed his first signs of being a genie later noticed by Grace.

Mercy loved her by showing her his talents: he can sing like a host, she can’t ; he wouldn’t listen to a word she says, she’s shy; he gave an origami heart to a perfect girl when finishing. Grace saw that, she was happy that this plain boy found love.

Later in the Wechat group which she held, he became the leader who showed mercy and love to her and every single person.
Each day, a reality virtual show is going on in her group. There are discussions about love, living, there are dispute and disagreement about politics and love, but never any argument, because this group is just so great and filled with so much wonderful people. As Mercy always praise them: you are a champion. And to her, he says: “you have done a great job. I have told my mum about you.”

In this process, Grace learnt to become a leader, why? Because Mercy taught her, he said to her, I’m too blunt, then Grace realised she was too blunt yesterday to R. When Grace apologised to R, she cried because they all said, no big deal. Grace finally learnt what is respect. She doesn’t yell at her son but now she let her son do what ever he chooses to do. Ever since, Grace watches Mercy, what is he really talking about? He seemed to be trying to teach Grace every skill a leader needs to possess. She absorbed all of them. Grace changed, she was a quiet thinker who just wanted to make some money out of her poverty, now she broadcasted to the world and told them what she has been thinking all these years: I want to change the world. She finally found herself and what she is. She was so proud of her.

One day, Mercy gave resignation to her and the group: I am leaving you guys. And to her, he says: don’t forget what you have said.

Grace didn’t know what to do, she cried and cried and she knew that she fell in love with he who gave her a new life. She knew she fell in love with freedom, dream and who she is.

So she chased him bluntly. She just wanted to marry Mercy. Will she succeed? Let’s see.

She is rich, I’m poor

She is beautiful, I am plain, says who, them all

Really? says me

Yep! said them

He chooses her over me

I’m not surprised, I knew they both loved money! They were made for each other!

I love money too, I need to find the man who loves the equal amount of money as I do.

I’m waiting patiently, really.

I’m in love with a man of my life. He’s a writer, and I have convinced myself that all the words he wrote is about me. He wrote：“He chooses her, of course, even better, he loves her, day after day. True love, that’s the thing.” I think he’s saying he loves me hehe

For years, I dreamed of meeting my true love while we are both doing teaching volunteer work. People tell me that I’m a dreamer. I thought so too. Until I found him. We met through volunteer work.

Being him, he gives courage and kindness to everyone in the world, but the thing that killed me is that he showed me who I am and he loved me like a father to son.

I don’t know why is he not the prime minister of this country, the system is just wrong. I can’t imagine a world filled with everyone just like him, encouraging, wise, loving, kind, brave… Oh my god you name it.

When I realised that I loved him, I told him that honestly. I have asked him for a date and he refused me gently. I don’t blame him, how can a father date his son? I’ll wait and mean while trying to become a person like him. Even better, I hope to beat him, you encourage me, I encourage you more; you brave, I’m braver than you; you write touching words, I write emotional sentence. It’s not likely that I’ll succeed but that’ll be the way I love him.

Just like you do.

Wrote on 08/03/2020

在我的Global Village 里，大家都穿着大裤衩子横行街头，不化妆抹眉，不知道能不能做到，只觉得那样会身心健康。

Wrote on 08/03/2020

最近好像很多人同情心泛滥，说我一定受了很多男人的委屈，于是小心翼翼各种约我。

我对西人的答复是这样的：那好吧，就见见。见了以后其实我也没感觉，但是我愿意继续和他走下去，如果他也投其所好。可是没有下文，我很失望。

我对印度和其他深色男人的答复是这样的：我不喜欢你们这个种族的男人。对不起。他们也都很大方，没对我破口大骂。

希望大家都碰到我碰到的这种男人。

世界就太平了。

Wrote on 08/03/2020

我刚看到一个赞扬日本精神的文字，联想起因为儿子引发的思考。

儿子喜欢刨根问底，他几次抓到日本餐厅的服务员问：“你们日本文字是不是学中国的呀？” 这些日本人的反应颠覆了我一向对他们精神的崇拜。因为他们无一人回答儿子这个问题，而且那种眼神是：你是不是找事啊? 这让我思考，日本人你到底怎么想我们中国？日本精神到底是不是我一直认为的世界都应该学习的东西？

最近看到一些西人的行为，我就很喜欢。他们有的带着笑要求中国人因病毒道歉，有的表扬中国各种。我觉得就应该这样，因为有疑问或者不满就必须说出来，这些人是推动世界进步的佼佼者。

再联想到我曾经碰到的种族歧视者对我挤眉弄眼装小眼睛中国人，我想好了下次怎么对付他。我会指着他身边的老婆说，你老婆眼睛确实好看。

Wrote on 19/03/20

他现在11岁，我根本管不了他，平时不能打不能骂，连检查他作业的要求都被断然并强烈拒绝。他让我相信他，做完了，不用检查。

其实我也可以强行检查，但是我呢是暗自把他当小白鼠养殖着，这是我的自然成熟法。和他爸唱反调的我，认为只要孩子快乐，自己学习和观察，给他空间和资源，长大不被哪里抓起来，看看他究竟能长成个什么样的人。

想象一下，每个地球人由他的基因和个人的强烈愿望长成一个个独一无二的人参娃娃，造福社会，而不是被我们家长和社会系统雕塑出一个统一的模子，人类会怎样发展？每一个个体又会怎样快乐。

Searching for love made me feel like a whore sometimes, and a free whore.

The only presents I got from various men are sex toys, massage ball, sex toys, spiritual quotes… This is far from my definition of been loved. Unless a LV bag or a diamond ring showed up, I can then believe that I’m been appreciated of my great sex skills and excellent oral service. (Oral service is usually done when I feel the freedom of doing what ever I like to do with my mouth and body. )

Hint hint: LV or diamond before telling me that you are hungry for me. Thank you very much!

Wrote on 06/03/2020

不懂中英文的我，时常觉得中文，中国几千年遗留文化，中国式思考怎么那么。。。。

落后？

Wrote on 05/03/2020

最近我怀疑我变成了同性恋，因为我爱上了另一个自己。一个我每天不停对话的更智慧的我。

我们的对话题材信不信由你，竟然是关乎：民主，自由，平等，爱。

另一个我经常尖锐得提出各种问题给我讨论，也会提出我从未思考过的点。比如，我这个民主社会中的弱势人士，总觉得民主社会真的好，但是他平等吗？为什么我有时觉得那么无助？另一个我说，有种族歧视的社会是平等的社会吗？类似这种问题，让我问她，那什么社会才是最好的呢？她说Global Village! 这是个我看过的电视节目的名字，顿时我觉得这个提议太棒了，我对她佩服得五体投地。

现在我还在等待他帮我解答的疑问就是，持久，至死不渝的爱在哪里？

wrote on 29/02/2020

What if I met you when I was young and vibrant,

What if you met me when you were selfish?

We would live happily ever after, you know why, because your god said so.

Now in our 40s, we actually met and have grown together in the matter of a few months.

We found love.

Along the way, we found: friendship, physical attraction, dignity, revolution, trust… everything beautiful you can imagine on human beings.

We simply agree on everything, we are passionate about the same thing, your World Family, my Global Village. You solved my puzzle on love and indifference.

You are my prophet, you showed me what kindness can do to people, I quote you” it got too much that I had to pass it on to other people or I’ll be drowned.”

We are not together yet, although I’m crazy about you, your soul and your appearance, I feel we are still missing the last ingredient to have our French kiss.

That is, your honesty, my love. 😉

I have been trying to purge any sex conversations in my We chat group because I was afraid of losing female potential customers. I feel the need to express my feelings toward sex so the man who is interested in me will understand me better.
I am a believer in egocentrism, I think we only do things that we do to benefit ourselves. So why do I have sex with you? Because it makes me feel good doing it with you. What makes the best sex? I feel I click with you, that simple! I could be horny because of expensive gifts, flattering words, or love. But clicking with you is the basis. I met an old truck driver, he’s still working at 60s so that he can look after his adult children, too bad, I would have clicked with him if he was 20 years younger. I clicked with another younger man, he’s like the toughest teacher ever and the best friend of my life, too bad he’s not available. So the guy out there, you know what I mean?
I have a secret wish, one day, man and woman, young and old, we talk about sex because we all really enjoying it.
Again, I hope I don’t lose more male or female potential customers.

What are the advantages and disadvantages of Speed dating?As the closing date for registration of my 1st dating event is approaching, a potential client said to me: I’m taking a chance with you Wang, if I do register. I said, thank you for taking a chance with me, if you do register.

So what do I guarantee with this event? This client answered it precisely for me. It is a number’s game, but why not the other dating method? I list below some of the disadvantages and advantages of my dating event:

Disadvantages:

1. How do I know if even 1 of the 10 attendees will click with me?
2. If I want to meet at least 100 people as it’s a number’s game, I will need to pay $200.
3. Close interaction makes me nervous
4. How do I know if I’m going to be shocked or surprised at the event?
5. Comment blow if you have more, I’m happy to discuss with you. 🙂

Advantages:

1. Do we know every thing anyway?
2. How many people can you meet in online dating in a year? How much money and time does it cost? What about introduction agent? With us, this 100 people can be spanned within a few months in some weekend morning. Is there any other efficient way of meeting this much people? You tell me.
3. The nervous, shy feelings along with the excitement etc etc.. where can you get these feelings in today’s dating field?
4. We let every one meet and greet in our Wechat group before the event happens.

Hope this convinces you to join us on 2 Nov 2019.